Friday, December 31, 2004

Made up my mind to make a new start.


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Originally uploaded by Rented Rooms.

If I were a songwriter, I could only hope that I could write a song as beautiful and emotive as "Going to California". (Click on the link &
you may see what I mean.)

Today I ate a fried plantain, watched the fireworks through my back window and took photos of an abandoned watch factory in Sag Harbor.

For the New Year I hope to be more persistent in getting what I want, cultivate closer frienships/relationships, become better at writing letters and keeping up on correspondence and to become a better person. Deep down, I cannot complain. I am lucky to be alive.

I hope you all have a good New Year.

PS. If you have the means, I strongly urge you to donate money and help the victims of the Tsunami. I recemmond giving to Oxfam America.

Monday, December 27, 2004

In the lost and found.


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Originally uploaded by Rented Rooms.


Saturday, December 25, 2004

Got the love I need.

Life is good, sort of. This moring I had part of a chocolate orange for breakfast and I received the most sexy Christmas gift there is out there right now, period. Forget Victoria's secret. The Led Zeppelin Complete Studio Recordings box set is where it's at.

Happy holidays, all.

Friday, December 24, 2004

Quite lucky to be alive, though.

It is around freezing point and overcast and I am pretty sure I am coming down with a cold, having suffered with an ongoing sore throat since last night. I don't really want to complain about it though, since S. has a sinus infection that he's treating with antibiotics and naps. Buster has tried to break into the Christmas presents a couple of times already, I'm pretty sure he's confused and thinks today is the 25th cos usually we don't put the presents down till that day. I've made my requisite phone call, taken a shower, had a lunch at McDonald's so I'm good to go. I wish there were a party to go to or at least a snow fall, but I doubt any of these will come up tonight.

Today is one of those days where I feel like I live at the end of the earth, isolated and almost alone. More and more, I am coming to accept this isolation as a fact of my life. More and more, I expect less and less. It's a conflicting thing inside my head: half empty, half full.

Music: Bob Dylan bootlegs

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

This is the start of what was.

Some of the more notable culinary gifts we've received this holiday season, so far:
- 1 2lb block of Vermont cheddar cheese, aged 2 years
- 1 box of smoked salmon
- 1 50 ounce bottle of Heineken
- 1 3lb block of Hershey milk chocolate
- 1 1lb bag of Hampton coffee company coffee beans
- 1 coffee grinder (!)

(Dude, I am going to gain a ton of weight this holiday.)

Christmas gifts I've bought for myself:
- Monopoly: Simpsons edition

Writing out the aforementioned lists helps to curb boredom. I want to write, but sometimes typing will have to suffice.

Things I am looking forward to:
- neighbors taking down tacky Christmas decorations--there's a spotlight from next door that illuminates the south side of our house.
- snow.
- the new year.
- possibly being able to travel further & more often.

Things I am not looking forward to:
- getting older, acquiring more responsibilities.

Music: The Streets, "Empty Cans"

Sunday, December 19, 2004

Animal house.

the most beautiful girl in the world

Saturday, December 18, 2004

The stars are brightly shining.

happy christmaheinukkah

inspired by the mirror project


Today a random man let me hold his border collie mix while he went inside a fancy-schmancy hair salon. I proceeded to pet the dog and sigh over how amazing it was that she gave me her paw the first time I asked for it, and how pretty her eyes were, one being a pale blue and the other, a chocolate brown. Also, while I was waiting for the owner to come back Roy Scheider AKA the dude from Jaws walked by--I didn't know who he was until S. told me, but I did notice that he had a new spiffy haircut.

Back to the dog--I'm strictly holding onto my policy of not letting anymore animals into this house for a couple more years, and it becomes easier on nights like tonight when Ruby climbed INTO the xmas tree.

Music: Belle & Sebastian, "O Little Town of Bethlehem"

Thursday, December 16, 2004

I need to get out of the house.

I am seriously stressed out right now. Last year, after Christmas, I put all the decorations and lights into one efficient box, and sharpie-d the words "XMAS 2003" in big bold black letters on both sides of the box. For the better part of the year, the box sat in my office, right under the window. At some point, during the year, I must have moved the thing--and now? I. can't. find. it.

I called S. in near hysterics about not being able to find the Christmas stuff and oh god, how are we ever going to decorate the tree? and other overblown sentiments and I am afraid that I gave him a headache.

I still can't find the fucking box.

And one of my lovely, dear sweet cats just puked on my Vans shoes. It's turning out to be a stellar day.

I feel like I'm taking crazy pills!

Music: Lemon Jelly, "Elements"

EDIT: I found the box! It was mysteriously concealed within ANOTHER box and with a heavy wood art sculpture on top of both boxes. Ahhh well.
And the twinkly blue lights still work!

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

It's stange.

To receive a gift and be totally depressed by it. Things are so transitory and I think I'm just growing up more & more & realizing that the things we think mean a lot mean nothing and the things that mean nothing actually mean a whole lot.

You changed, so, oh oh...

Music: Joanna Newsom, "Peach, Plum, Pear"

Sunday, December 12, 2004

One plus one is one, forever.

I did not know Monopoly was such a nasty game (at least from what I can recall of it when I was a child). But whoever's reading this, I would advise you to not play with someone you really care about for fear of being accused of being a capitalist pig. That's all that I'm going to say about that.

Today I pre-ordered my Napoleon Dynamite and Garden State DVDs. If you haven't seen these already, you should--and if you get quick shipping, you'll have them before the new year. Extra Christmas presents = fun.

Music: Badly Drawn Boy, "Year of the Rat"

Saturday, December 11, 2004

Top 10 albums of 04.

I'm not going to pretend that this is the definitive best-of list of albums released in '04 since I have not heard every single album released this past year. I have however listened to more than a handful, and these are my favourites out of all of them.

10. Camera Obscura - Underachievers Please Try Harder
9. Franz Ferdinand - s/t
8. Air - Talkie Walkie
7. Phoenix - Alphabetical
6. The Libertines - s/t
5. Iron and Wine - Our Endless Numbered Days
4. Interpol - Antics
3. The Arcade Fire - Funeral
2. Elliott Smith - From a Basement on the Hill
1. The Walkmen - Bows + Arrows

Honourable mentions:
Morrissey - You are the Quarry
Loretta Lynn - Van Lear Rose
Modest Mouse - Good News for People Who Love Bad News
The Killers - Hot Fuss
Snow Patrol - Final Straw

This is just a sorry lament.

The day started off well: we finished our Christmas shopping and bought the kitties and Buster their presents. Went out for Japanese for lunch and then to Easthampton to go see Closer--which was a huge depressive mindfuck of a movie. And everything was fine, until we came home and I got out of the car and I noticed a dark shadow lying in the middle of the road. Right away I knew it was some sort of dead animal, for a moment I even entertained the thought that it was my cat Squawk (who is rather swarthy) but upon closer inspection it turned out to be our neighbour's little dog. So we had the joy of going there and informing the owner that his dog had been hit and killed.

There's way too much death around us lately.

I can barely wrap my mind around the death of an animal, let alone a war, a person killing another person--the world is too huge sometimes and I am tiny and insignificant and hurt by it nonetheless.

Music: Belle & Sebastian, "This Is Just A Modern Rock Song"

Thursday, December 09, 2004

Won't you help to sing.

Joe Strummer & The Mescaleros, "Redemption Song" -- S. was singing this in the bathroom this morning while I lay half asleep in bed and it got stuck in my head. I have 4 versions of this song downloaded but this is my favourite. The importance of this song need not be explained in our current political climate, no? The video is even better & more sad, given the demise of Joe Strummer.

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

Just like hoppy.

Last night I had a bunch of bad & bizarre dreams, most of which I can't recall but which did leave me in quite a crabby mood this morning. But the only one I do vaguely remember is that I found a bunny rabbit in an empty schoolyard and wanted to keep it for a pet but it ran away.

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

New blog template.

Yay or nay? I wanted some more colour--this is slightly less minimalistic than my other one.

No Christmas while I'm talking.

I wish that it would snow, but it's constantly raining. This faux winter makes me miss Canada. This weekend we're going to go cut down our own Christmas tree. On Sunday I wrote out about 20 holiday cards, using my rusty penmanship. The last week has been pretty quiet, aside from a brief respite to go see The Spongebob Squarepants Movie--the theatre was full of kids but no one was really laughing as hard as S. and I.

I guess I'm just moody cos it's grey and wet and I haven't left the house yet today. But I do really want snow. For the holidays to feel like holidays again. My life has never been as quiet and strange as it is now. Deep down, I'm happy. But I do feel like I still have a lot to say, if only I could find it beneath everything else.

Music: The Wallkmen

Friday, December 03, 2004

Consumer reports.

Word to the wise and the athletically inclined: never, ever buy your workout shoes at a Reebok outlet store. I bought a new pair a month ago, which saw me through about 25 workouts before they wore out in the back and gave me a nasty blister on my left foot. Normally I would shrug this off as a defective pair, but the same thing happened to a previous pair of shoes I had owned from the same store. $50 down the drain, my friends.

And the thing is, I don't know where to get a good, sturdy pair of shoes anymore--should I brave either the Adidas or the Nike outlet store? These are the only stores close to me that sell sporting goods. If you've any advice or recemmondation for a good pair of shoes for intense speed walking/jogging, please let me know.

Current Music: The Arcade Fire, "Neighborhood #3 (Power Out)"
Currently feeling: Ripped off

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